Friday, March 20, 2015

Winning the Race

Sometimes, a race is won merely by showing up at the starting line.

In a world that predominately celebrates the gifted, the “perfect" and the privileged, we are rarely afforded a glimpse of the heroic pursuits that happen daily beyond the pandering press coverage that dominates our media devices. Our sensibilities are hijacked by the exaltation and idolization of admittedly, accomplished, but overpaid and excessively-hyped professional athletes who are genetically gifted and worshipped by the media, advertisers and sports fans. And quite often, the biggest “winners” wind up being the biggest losers.

Meanwhile, all around us every day, there are great and valiant human achievements happening that we don’t hear about. There are real athletes competing against obstacles and opponents we don’t even know exist. Every day a major feat of heroism is attained with one, tiny, trembling, step forward.

I recently had the privilege of working at the Wounded Warrior Trials at the Nellis Air Force Base in Las Vegas. What I experienced that day was a tremendously inspiring look into a parallel universe where the power of the human spirit is unbridled; fueled by hope, determination and victory. 

Robbed of limbs, emotionally tormented by the unspeakable horrors of war, stricken with traumatic brain injuries and life-altering illnesses, these men and women have risen from ashes. They are rebuilding themselves; redefining the nature of athleticism; pushing the boundaries of possibility and demonstrating for us that we are, in fact, the curators of our own lives.

I was working at the athlete check-in table that day and one of the hand cycling competitors, Ryan, had not yet checked in for his event. I inquired with coaches and fellow competitors and they were certain that he would be coming. He had been training all week with them and was determined to race. Someone made a phone call and found out that Ryan was “having a rough morning,” but was on his way.

He finally arrived a few minutes before his race was to begin. Ryan is a young veteran with severe leg injuries and motor skill impairment from a serious brain injury he sustained when a bomb detonated while he was serving in the Middle East. He cannot walk and he has difficulty speaking as a result of his brain injury.

I cannot begin to imagine the hurdles Ryan has had to overcome to get to this point. I can only surmise that he has endured multiple surgeries, hours of agonizing and exhausting physical and emotional therapy, and the tyranny of the seemingly glacial pace of recovery.

We got him set up for his race and off he went. I don’t know how he finished that day and it doesn’t really matter. What matters to me is that despite losing nearly everything just a year or two prior, Ryan made it to the starting line. And the starting line represents a chance in our lives for us start anew. It is a moment in time where we can decide who and what we shall become, regardless of what has come before and what might befall us in the future.

Every day, every hour and every minute marks an opportunity for a new beginning. It is there before us for the taking. But we must open our eyes and extend our arms and reach for it because there is no greater prize than the chance to start again. 

Wednesday, July 23, 2008

Whose Life Are You Living, Anyway?

As teens, we eagerly anticipated the day we would reach the magical age of 18. "At last!," we proclaimed. "I will become an adult!" as if some magical transformation would occur on that date. "I will make my own decisions!" "My parents will no longer tell me what I can and can't do anymore!," we declared. Oh, the bliss of ignorance.

Truth is, you could move half-way across the world and still be shackled by the confines of your parents, grandparents and every other influential person that crossed your path in your formative years. Even when your parents are dead, you are still subject to values, beliefs and behaviors that they inculcated you with even as you swore you never listened to a word they said. You rebelled. "I will NEVER make my kids eat Brussel sprouts!" I will NEVER be like you, Dad!"

Fast-forward to your 30's. You are living a tragically dysfunctional life. You hoard newspapers, just like your mother did (although you do this in your Kindle as opposed to taking an actual "paper."). You chastise your boyfriend for using paper towels as napkins (your father's pet-peeve). You're working an 8 to 5 job with just two weeks vacation a year because your parents harped on you to get a good steady job, so that you could have a good retirement. You hate it. But isn't it what every responsible adult must do? You are not special. You're not any different from the next working stiff who's just trying to make an honest living like his parents did. Or ARE YOU?

Whose life are you living? What shackles keep you from creating the life you dream about? Whose voice is telling you that you are not different from the next guy? Whose voice is telling you not to shoot for the stars? Whose voice is telling you to play it safe and accept what life gives you?

I recently read The Alchemist, by Paola Coehlo. The Alchemist generously rewards a monk for his hospitality. The monk humbly replies that the value of the gift exceeds the value of his hospitality. The Alchemist tells him not to protest lest the wind hears and life gives him less next time.

Reading this passage, I realized that I had been taught by my mother never to accept a generous gift. I was taught to politely refuse it, because it was just "too big" or "too dear" for me. It occurred to me that in teaching me this, she programmed me to undervalue my self worth and my expectations of what my value could be in the marketplace and in the world in general. I went off into the job market accepting whatever the employer was offering instead of learning to negotiate in accordance with the added value of having me as an employee.

Needless to say, I have escaped the shackles of under valuing myself. Today, I gladly accept a generous gift of thanks or compensation without a hint of guilt or feeling of unworthiness. Why? Because I am a generous and talented individual. I add a lot of value to the world. I am not like the next guy. I am different. I am what I choose to make of myself and I will gladly reap the rewards of my achievements.

Everyday, I question my reactions and behaviors in general. Why do I react negatively to a certain situation? Is it me? Or is it my mother reacting? If it's my mother, I ask myself, do I agree with this response or is it time for me to form my own view? Only by questioning your daily actions and thought processes can you truly begin to live your own life. So, I ask you, whose life are you living?